Mood: Quite pissed off actually.
Listening to: One - Metalica



Warning people this is one of my rants. You don't want to read it then there's a back button. :\

A few days ago school started here in Lake Placid (and probably for a few more places but I could careless about them :\). But this year ~Sa-Tina nor I will be attending.

Moday, which was the first day of school, I sat at home. It felt quite weird. It got me thinking about all my friends and all the fun we use to have during school. All the days we sat at lunch together and always ended up talking about sexual things. x3 How we all use to stand by the lockers and talk about nothing. How we use to make fun of Jenkinroth.

After thinking about for a while I realized how much I'm actually going to miss it. But I don't regret droping out. At least I'm doing something about it and getting my high school diploma or my GED. For a while I felt like I was just another stupid kid that couldn't make it and just quit. But inspiration came from another place. I was at work one day and didn't feel like going outside (too hot), so I stuck around inside for a while and was talking with one of the cashiers who went got her GED and what she told me next was probably one of the best things I've never heard. Her words were, "On the top of the little piece of paper I was given it said high school diploma, so you don't you ever let anyone tell you different." And that's really helped me a lot.

Much to my disappoint quite a few of my friends were not happy about this. I read ~zareonianwolf's journal earlier today. Instead of leaving a comment about how I actually felt, 'cause I was fucking pissed the hell off, I just sat in my chair and cried. I'm no longer angery, I mean if that's the way she feels about it then it can't be helped. I still think of her as one of my closest friends.

As a lot of my real life friends know I'm moving to Georgia in about a month or two. That's been on my mind a lot lately, but I try and push it out of my thinking. I'm moving up to a small northen Georgia town which I hear is smaller than Lake Placid. :\ Hu-fucking-rah. I don't want to move but I have no choice I have to go.

I'm on the verge of a nervous breakdown I swear.

There's way to much things on my mind lately. I'm starting to feel like one of those emo kids again. :\ Great.

Well on another note I'm changing my deviantART account for those who care. I know, I know. I don't want to hear things like, 'Why are you changing it again?!' or 'Why can't you just keep this stupid one?!'. Here's my reason; I want my name not a video game's name. My account name lament-of-innocence was based off of Castlevania: Lament of Innocence. Back when I was really into it I changed my account from Guardian-Silver to lament-of-innocence. Blah. My new account's ~Silvxa. If it annoys you or it's too much hasale for you it watch me then please don't.

Well I must venture off to work. Seeya.



Peace out.